ChiCchOc

dear….dead???

2010-06-06T00:16:00.001+08:00

Some say it ain’t over till it’s over, but I guess it’s really over now….

There’s something i gotta say before I let you go, so listen!

Before this, whenever you and she would argue, then sometime tears would fall, and as you’re struggling, I will felt the rays of hope.

I would calm down as I look at your smile especially when my heart shattered in the silence.

I chose to conceal and hide my feelings away from you, because i knew if you find out, we maybe no longer together.

So the only thing I can do was just hold my breath and bite my lips

“Please leave her and come to me”

“Dear, please don’t hold her hand”

“Cause you should be my men that I’ve been waiting forever, so please look at me”

I clearly know once the wedding music starts, you’ll vow to spend the rest of your life with her, though I prayed and hoped that this day would never come.

Looking at the wedding ring you’re wearing, why it’s not me wore for you? why it’s not me next to you?

I hated you for not understand how i felt, so at one point, I even wished for your misery!

But my tears were already dried up, when I'm by myself talk to you like you’re here.

Every night i felt anxious, maybe I’ve known all along that this would happen, so the only thing I can do was just close my eyes and dream an endless dream – please leave her and come to me!!!

Dear,

Be happy with her so I can move on!

Please erase those pitiful memories of me!

I know for a long time, it’s going to be unbearably hard for me….sigh…

I spent too much time fantasizing, and had a lonely life like a fool. But you still look at me and smile brightly…dear…

I…am suffering…Do you know that?

Fashion is not merely fashion….

2010-04-03T19:53:00.001+08:00

If you are what you wear, you better dress the part you want.

But only a few lucky ladies can do no wrong.

Their look’s perfection, and they have accessories to match.

But most girls get tired of the same old look, and they’ll just do about anything to get the hot new piece on their arm.

And then there are those with no vision of their own, thieves of fashion who’ll steal the shirt off your back.

And always remember, appearance can be deceiving.

But whatever you wear, always dress to kill!!!

~向日葵盛开的夏天~

2009-12-29T20:57:00.001+08:00

樱花飘过了秋天你我分开的季节
眼泪疼了无法表达
反复在我心深处的挣扎
伞为你开却被你收

踏在青色柏油路忘记走习惯的路
害怕了吗想念你啊
夏天的向日葵不说心事
伤感的字乱了理智无法掩饰

感谢你陪伴我走过了每一步
花终究会凋落没办法再呵护

这真的是一段很难熬的路
触碰感情深处我才读懂幸福

经过一阵雷雨太阳依旧灿烂
雨后的向日葵会安静的陪伴

你说过每一句我会好好记住
在陌生的未来我会更勇敢

。。。我很想你。。。

2009-08-17T23:19:00.001+08:00

曾经晚上，幸福的梦都在脑海里头盘旋。。。

不过现在，美梦都已破俑化蝶而飞。。。

我知道你还是爱着我，虽然分开的理由我们都已接受。。。

你知道我会有多难过，所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油。。。

我知道你还放不下我，才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头。。。

我们都知道彼此心中。。。其实这份爱没停过！

我多希望你还在我左右。。。

I've Forgotten

2009-07-08T17:45:00.001+08:00

Been silence for a while....never listen to any chuckling voices, never tilt up my head looking at the dazzling sun....

Walking alone, the long and unwinding road....the colourful world seems to be faded into shades of gray....

It's been some time, I'm living in my own world, my own dream, my own imagination....and I've forgotten the realm world I'm in....

I'm torn today! I feel that all this day, I'm just being someone I'm not suppose to be, someone I don't even know and understand, a commoner. I wish I could just snuck out from the scene, never able to set me down there....

Walking over the checkpoint? No! After my lower limb muscles asphyxiated by the long days walking, I just realize I'm walking backwards then, leaning back to the starting point....never fight with anything, merely against the tickling clock....

All pledges and promises, claimed to be everlasting, just break off like a thread without making any noises....all wishes and bless, claimed to be realizing, just flying off without giving me a chance to hold it for a second....Only after I closed my eyes, the warmth and sharpen clips, able to flick, just like it's happening!

I grasped the missing, hold the love without keeping any strength....but still I can't assure myself, the smile on your face, will still be there tomorrow....the only way of having it again, might just the memory saved, following the path we've gone through, deep into....only seconds though~~~

There's a time, I believe, tear drop can bring the end to sadness, a full stop for the one chapter of my life! But now, I've understand no one can forget the past....we can only hide it, and let the passed be the past!

Learn to let go~~~

2009-05-15T21:13:00.001+08:00

A fairy tale will normally end with Happily Ever After, but it turns out fairy tales end when they do for a reason.

Just like shoulder pads may come and go, but a B.F.F. is forever.

Because even when you're not sure where you're headed, it helps to know you're not going there alone!

In real life, no one has all the answers, and sometimes the best we can do is just apologize, and let the passed be the past.

Other times, we need to look to the future, and know that even when we think we've seen it all, life can still surprise us, and we can still surprise ourselves.

一路顺风

2009-04-25T15:55:00.001+08:00

对过去的，不要眷恋；

对现在的，勇敢担当；

对未来的，要有展望；

对今生的，要多珍惜。

道翔，不要让支持你的人失望哦！！！

祝你一切顺利！！！

Best in life

2009-03-30T01:11:00.001+08:00

Sometimes in life, there are really hard bond formed that can never be broken.

Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what.

Maybe you will find it in the spouse and celebrated with your dream wedding.

But there is also a chance, that the one person you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you, sometimes better than you know yourself, is the same person who’s been standing beside you all along.

~妥协~

2009-03-29T23:26:00.002+08:00

你总爱编织谎言
我负责配合表演
所有改变只为了进入你的世界

这情节重复了一百遍
才发现是你的心太远

你划定楚河汉界
我不能轻易犯规
所有时间都是先给了你优先权

不自觉爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协到头来还是无解
绑着你不让你飞
历史不断重演我好累

爱到妥协也无法将故事再重写
你已下最后通牒我躲在我的世界

你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想再为你掉泪
我了解不会变不再徘徊
开始自己的明天

给你的祝福...

2009-03-08T22:22:00.001+08:00

一直以来，我都坚持着，想象着，我所想的一切，总有一天会发生在现实中。

可是，你我都知道，这些并不是属于我们的。。。风要吹得多猛，海要翻得多汹涌，都不是我们所预料得到！

有时候，我会傻傻的问自己，如果我敢追求，我就敢拥有吗？而如果什么都算了，不要了，我们又会有什么样的结局？

或许吧。。。。或许我永远都不会遇见他；也或许是，我太天真地把他想得太简单了。。。。我们的爱，该来的，始终会来。。。。痴痴的等待，也只是徒劳无功的付出，反而成了别人的负担！

今天，我问了一个问题。其实我早就知道答案了，不过我还是很想从他的口中，听他亲口述说。不过，谜底始终不被揭开。。。是他的不愿意？还是我的唐突？我不知道。

也许我已不应该再过问他昨天之前的结局，也不应该猜想他明天之后的憧憬。只希望他能忘记属于我们点点滴滴的伤心。。。。让他所爱的人，得到幸福！

我永远都祝福你~~~

寂寞...

2009-03-05T01:34:00.000+08:00

今天夜晚的凉风, 并没有像往常一样, 抚平烦躁的心情......

却让孤独的我, 顿时觉得很冷, 冷得全身都在发抖......

突然感觉......我好孤独......好寂寞......

以前读着你的部落格, 我会莫名的开心起来, 笑得很幸福!

现在, 却让我突然觉得很紧张, 一种很不舒服的感觉.......

好像失去了一切, 在我心房插入了千千万万把刀......很痛......很伤.....

没有你的日子, 也不知道上网还有什么好玩之处了.......

只能忆起你曾经带个我美好的回忆, 试着抚慰受伤中的心灵.......

让自己好过一点!

想念你...

放不下...

2009-02-16T01:05:00.001+08:00

今天，跟了好多人吵。。。也许，我今天的情绪不是很好，太累了。。。也可能是，我到现在仍然放不下我的执著。。。期望着把所有人都掌握在手心中的执著。。。

我知道这种性格，不会让人喜欢，只会日翌积聚地让人觉得越来越厌倦，越来越无理取闹。。。不过，怎么样也好，我只不过是一个普通人，哪有可以要变就变的能力呢。。。就算变了，我又会还是那个你所爱的，你所认识的我吗？

有时候吵了过后，我的心，就会感到非常的痛。。。一种集结着，百感交集的感觉。。。我常常都会反问自己，为什么我要那么傻，明知我根本就是不介意，为什么还要拗别人的气？不过又如何呢？都傻了那么多年了。。。其实在我的心里，我很清楚知道，我可以为你做的真的不止是那么少。。。

每一次吵，其实就像钻石刮花了；和好的时候，刮花的钻石就像重新打磨，看起来好像没什么一样。。。但是，刮一次，磨一次；再刮一次，又磨一次，钻石的份数就会低了，这些损失是永远也補不回的。。。那颗钻石永远也不能还原到最初的璀璨夺目！不过我的心记性很好，这颗钻石无论在哪一个阶段也好，我也记得他最初的模样．

还记得第一次看见的你，你那时候的样子，说话的语气；我更加记得你第一次骗我的样子；记得你第一次求我帮忙的样子，我更加记得那天你说要放下以前从头再来的那个样子．．．你知不知道？那个样子跟我第一次认识的你是一样的．．．那时候我就很清楚明白，我们之间没有了那份情感，开头和结尾，共同拿了一个结局．．．

我只是希望，能够一直见到你，因为我放不下你，我不能失去你．．．

Gossip Style : Summer Kind of Wonderful

2009-01-24T17:34:00.001+08:00

Blair Wardolf

In the season premiere Blair wears a gorgeous vintage inspired Salvatore Ferragamo one piece swimsuit. She finishes the look with a CC Skye white leather bracelet and Te Casan flip flops.

Blair returns from her trip abroad with a new beau and a new tote in tow. Here Blair really plays with her primary colors and what a fabulous way to do it. A little blue here (Lorick top, Vera Wang shorts, Delman heels), a dash of green there (Ferragamo tote), and a hint of red on the wrist. The color combination of the three colors is tres magnifique.

Blair looks quintessentially Hamptons in this fabulous Milly dress. Her Arturo Chiang pumps and her Alexis Bittar bangle. That makes this look one that you can get from head to toe. Add a fun headband and you're a Waldorf in the making.

Blair takes a bike ride with her new beau in a floral Alice and Olivia dress. Style trumps function in Blair's book who continued the floral trend with a headband by Cara Couture and shoes by Lulu Guiness. The floral is neutralized with some pink from Alice and Olivia (belt) and Kate Spade (bag). Bike riding never looked so chic.

The dress code called for white, and Blair Waldorf didn't disappoint. Here she's wearing a Marc by Marc Jacobs white ribbon dress, a headband by Jennifer Behr, Chloe white pumps, and a Ferragamo patent clutch.

Serena van der Woodsen

In this scene Serena is turning to Blair to offer sage dating advice but they might as well be talking about their sophisticated pool side wardrobe. Here Serena is wearing a gold print coverup, a brown one piece and Jimmy Choo "Allena Elaphe" sandals.

Serena's all alone and lonely in this particular scene in the Hamptons. Head's up S, you won't be single for long, especially if you keep parading around the beach looking this good. Serena's beach look consists of a silk Yaya tunic, CK black tube top, Ronni Simon red coral bracelet and a Kate Spade wicker tote.

Serena and Nate look to be having a heated conversation here. Might they be arguing about how you can't get that amazing Chanel patent bag? Regardless, Serena is ready for a casual day in the Hamptons with that fabulous bag, her Vena Cava dress and Te Casan gold strappy sandals.

Serena attends the VitaminWater party in a vision of white and silver. Her stunning grecian inspired dress is by Oscar de la Renta. We're loving the silver strands she ties in her hair and let's hang loose below her neck. Serena completes the look with Moschino gold heels and a Ronni Simon pink pearl crochet bracelet. She looks fit for a wedding.

Jenny Humphrey

Jenny looks both pretty and demure in her "self-designed" ivory short sleeve dress with a sash. You might not be able to spot them in these photos but she's wearing Te Casan pink open toe shoes with pom pom detail and carrying a Salvatore Ferragamo satin bag with gold handle.

So, that's how those elite wearing here....maybe you can work it out yourself in the coming summer!!!

城市牛仔的 DENIM 告白

2009-01-23T23:41:00.001+08:00

今天，牛仔裤对全世界，有一种巨大的社会情感。它也是唯一全球通行的时尚「制服」。

50年代，牛仔裤成为美国文化的一部分；人人迷上牛仔裤，除了上教堂，几乎没有人没有一条蓝色的牛仔裤。二次大战，跟著全球趴趴走的美军，牛仔裤和欧洲街头「次文化」一拍即合，在摇滚乐的催化之下，代表「西部风格」的牛仔装扮引发时尚圈的共鸣。

耐磨、耐操，穿旧了更有二手身价的牛仔裤，情感上其实一直很矛盾。「又爱又恨」的情结来自，它虽然提供了人人平等、世界大同的共通语言，但要从看似平凡的牛仔裤穿出自己的味道，是一种挑战。牛仔裤的真正魅力对我而言，是鼓动血液里那分特有的纯真、性感、颓废和狂放。

牛仔裤的粗犷和性感有种对时尚主流的反抗。穿上牛仔裤所产生的化学作用，不分年纪和性别，依恋的情绪彷佛紧紧抓住了青春的尾巴。人们对牛仔裤的依赖和历久不衰的喜爱教人惊讶。1873年利用捆车篷的帆布制作了第一条钉了五口袋的牛仔裤商人Mr. Levi Strauss，可能也无法想象，今天那些上网竞标Levis 501原版牛仔裤蒐藏的
fans狂热的行径。

牛仔裤很难被取代。这条「世纪之裤」的历史，还真煞有其事。相传旧兮兮的牛仔布种源起于法国，是一种丝和羊毛混纺的斜纹布，十七世纪末在法国十分风行。但是等传到英国，由于发音上的困难，才被改称作Denim，也就是所谓「丹宁布」的由来。
牛仔裤其实还有一种说法是，十九世纪美国淘金矿工所穿的一种超耐穿的斜纹布。但是，无论如何，牛仔裤有本事历经了近两个世纪的潮流，还能以不变应万变的姿态，屹立不摇，的确称得上是时装史上的传奇和一大创举。

牛仔裤的发迹和明星及时代背景，环环相扣。五Ｏ年代，牛仔裤几乎和美国文化画上等号。但是，真正让牛仔裤的工人「土」味成功地转换成「酷」劲，1953年影星Marlon Brando 在电影「The Wild One」中皮夹克配上牛仔裤的造形，功不可没。James Dean、Marilyn Monroe、Madonna和一大串明星也都分别赋予牛仔裤更多元的时代个性。

牛仔裤的魅力在于既满足普罗大众的胃口，也能让人跻身时尚字典成为品味穿著的代言。七Ｏ年代，服装设计师Calvin Klein首创紧贴曲线的牛仔裤型，尤其是名模布鲁克雪德丝Brook Shields一句，「我和我的牛仔裤之间什都没有。」的广告词，让过去一百年来几乎没有什么变化的牛仔裤从粗犷走向性感。不但男人睁大眼睛，连女人也竖起敏感的时尚神经，重新定义了牛仔裤的性格和角色扮演。

八Ｏ年，Post-Punk带动了在牛仔裤上挖洞、补丁的颓废风潮；这块百变「丹宁布」进入九Ｏ年代末，所谓「后牛仔时代」；传统靛蓝色的丹宁布历经各种刻意破坏的「表面处理」技术，无非希望牛仔裤能够穿出「同中求异」的个性品味。

之后，各种加诸牛仔裤的设计，包括机油污、砖块灰土，以及施以各种化学药剂加工；酵素、酸碱、漂染和刷洗还不够，接著牛仔裤进入抽须、补洞、抓痕和撕裂等「酷刑」；1999年设计师Tom Ford在破洞、毛边和补缀的牛仔裤上饰以华丽的羽毛，至此，牛仔裤可以说集破败和华丽于一身，更在翻云覆雨的名牌操作下，从挖矿工人的工作服，一步登天跻身上流社会舞台，摇身成为时尚清单上的Must Buy。

平均每年光是美国市场牛仔裤的消费高达70亿美金。把自己塞进牛仔裤里是一种「放纵」的心情使然。想象跟著Jordache牛仔裤广告「超级名模」Heidi穿著紧得不能再紧的牛仔裤泡在浴缸里，全赖美妙地「移情作用」。明年会流行什么牛仔裤? 祟尚阳光健朗、自然舒适的水洗刷白直筒裤型，或窄身性感的弹性莱卡丹宁，都是不错的选择。

牛仔裤是时代的温度计。代表了纯真的性感象征；牛仔裤是劳工阶级、辣妹、休闲、摇滚乐和美国梦的混合体；牛仔裤当然不是唯一的选项，但我想说的是，它永远都会是你衣橱里最贴心的情人！

~ Gossip Girl ~

2009-01-23T21:11:00.004+08:00

Gossip Girl here!

Your one and only source into the scandalous lives of Manhattan's elite.

I guess most of you will be familiar with this sentence, as it's kinda popular or I could say, I love it so much.

Though I'm not belonged to the first line of fans, but at least I'm not too late to follow and chase for it. Handsome and Pretties! oh gosh! How good if I'm one of them????(impossible though)

There's too many factors to be discussed, which made me fall so much on it.....but one thing for sure, not the storyline, but the glamour, trendy Chic's outfit in the series......it just give you the imagination, hallucinate you're wearing Dior, Ralph Lauren, Chanel to school! Fu~yoh~

Anyway, I've made up my decision to discuss each episodes, what they're wearing.....as to satisfy myself and of cause, to let YOU grab an outfit just like them......of cause if you're able to do so!

xo xo Gossip Girl

……..

2009-01-14T13:18:00.002+08:00

最近听了一个故事, 故事就是说有一个上师, 想启发他徒弟的心性, 所以就吩咐他的徒弟, 从山脚背着一个很重且装满大麦的包袱走上山顶, 中间不许他停下来休息. 于是,那个徒弟就按师傅的吩咐, 背起了那个装满大麦很重的包袱, 一直走…一直走…

包袱很重. 他越走越累; 越累就越重. 于是就越走越慢, 越走越慢…走了很久很久, 他终于到达了山顶!

一到山顶,徒弟就放下包袱, 累得他站也站不起来. 但是很奇怪,突然在那一刹那, 他觉得很轻松, 世上的一切都很美好, 山风很轻爽, 整个人都自由了! 一切的障碍都瓦解了,包括他自己的凡心也突然瓦解了. 就在那一刹那, 他终于了解自己的心性.

听了这一个故事,我第一个想起的, 就是每一个人心里所背负着的秘密. <家家有本难念的经>, 也许听起来有些老套, 不过这也是不管你活在哪个世纪, 哪个年代永远都逃脱不了的宿命!

有些人选择以自杀来脱离宿命冥冥中的安排, 不过他们不明白这只是把他们所必须承受的包袱,没有经过同意的把它寄放于他身边的人, 爱他的人. 放下包袱, 并没有想象中的如斯简单, 也并不是三两天所能做到的事. 放下了一个,也并不代表不会有第二个的出现.

是以, 不要强迫自己放下包袱, 也不要无知的选择去逃避它. 背得累了, 就把它暂且放下, 选择以拖着带它走. 也许这会放慢了脚步, 不过它却是一个时时刻刻提醒着你, 你还有很多事情要做, 你还有生存在这个世界上的价值, 的一个包袱!

Never Knows…

2008-11-01T13:56:00.001+08:00

"No matter how the world has changed, it will still be the place we have to rely on everyday!"

This world just full of doubts, sometimes you will be a little bit self-centered that you actually knowing everything; but sometimes you might sudden realize that you're actually a jerk who don't know anything, yet pretending to be the one.

Maybe I must say this is human beings….we are just too well appreciate to have a great mind, great thought! In fact, we're just thinking of nonsense and sometimes only imaginary and virtual thingy which would never ever happen.

Something happen on me recently….I used to feel that I am the one to him, I can actually bring the imaginary and virtual into my real life. However, seems like I'm just thinking a little bit too much. There's hardly to be fairy tales happen in real life, even though sometimes u might dream of you to be the princess in the castle, the prince who is the mighty warrior. I'm not saying it's 100% impossible, but at least its 0.00000000000000001 possibility. I must admit that I really got feeling on him, but GOD knows, it might just works in virtual world. In reality, the feeling might just fade away so, or maybe disappointment! What a complicated world is this!!!

Maybe I should have set up a camera in front of me last time, capture every single moment I'm with him….hahahaha….cause don't know why, he's the one who can make me smile and laugh in front of a dead screen. If my mom was passing my room that time, sure she will get me to the temple, expel and invoke the spirit! Hahaha! But, sometimes I keep on thinking; does he feel the same as I am? Or he's just entertaining a forsaken? Again! GOD knows. Of cause, I hope that he's same as me, laugh and smile stupidly in front of the screen. Then at least I don't feel like I'm the forsaken gal…

He's really a special guy in my life. I guess till the day I die, he will be the one running 360® in my mind. He just…gives me…really…some kind of special feeling, at least in my special 21th years living in this world! Somehow, I actually believe that no one can actually do like what we have did. Cause it's actually kind of hard to have such special connection, I mean with the world full of attraction and bias, wanna keep stay on one person, it's not that easy. When I'm with him, I really hope that the time won't pass that fast, cause I really not willing to leave the keyboard when talking to him. But, no choice, we have to, time just not for two of us, it's running for everyone! The only way you can do just appreciate each and every single moments, then you will really have a sweet dream when you're sleeping. It's just blissful!

To be continue…..

Fuckerama...

2008-10-22T19:12:00.002+08:00

I've been hurt badly by a stupid idiot Geek today.....I really can't imagine i can actually be friend with such fucker for such a long time......i feel that i myself is stupid stupid stupid!!!!!

You dunno me and i dunno you this idiot asshole, we're just fucking crazy rubbish bout everything.....and now i really don't have any single fuckin idea how i actually did that!!!!

SO, from now on.....i'll juz kick ur mother asshole out of any equation of my life.....u IDIOT fuckerama!!!!

HATE u! FUCK u!!!!

back to ur idiot geek world~~~~

~OLYMPIC vs BRANDED~

2008-08-23T19:37:00.008+08:00

Strength & Beauty

Every 4 years, the whole world will have a big gathering to unite and in successing the only and very own Olympic games.....and this year, we are so proud to have it in Asia - the Beijing 2008!

There were philosophers who described Olympic as the essence of Strength & Beauty, and Beauty will always related to Fashion......this indirectly bring to a lot of businesses to those brands! So before the end of Beijing Olympic 2008, let's take a look at those competitions and matches not inside the Olympic field, but the outside Fashion field!!!

1997, Prada success to bring in Sport element into luxurious brand and create a Prada Sport phenomenon with its "RED line" sporty fashion. Especially the sport shoe which achieved enourmous success ever in the history with an incredible sales of 16 millions pairs.....

As one of the successor in sport fashion, Prada works hard to be the No.1 brand in Beijing 2008! This summer, the goods come out with a cute bear as the main element.

Classic & Legendary - TONER 化妆水

2008-08-21T01:19:00.005+08:00

Clinique Clarifying Lotion 2號潔膚水

誕生年：1968
推薦原因：

該品牌最為經典且最為暢銷的產品，第一個以去角質概念出發的化妝水，標榜適合一般肌膚適用，但其實更推薦中油性膚質使用。成分其實非常簡單：水、酒精、金縷梅、薄荷腦，雖然有人一直質疑其中酒精與薄荷腦的刺激性，然而，這支產品由於是以擦拭的方式來達到再次清潔肌膚的效果，當中酒精與薄荷的短暫接觸肌膚我認為其實並不會造成肌膚的負面影響。至少，在銷售將近40年中，如果因此造成肌膚的傷害，相信該產品早已不存在，使用時有明顯清涼感受，正確使用真的可以將表皮一些老廢角質去除，以幫助後續保養品吸收，並防止毛孔阻塞。

Kosé Medicated Sekkisei Lotion雪肌精

誕生年：1985

推薦原因：

日本20年來創下3000萬瓶驚人銷售奇蹟的產品，可說是Kosé這個品牌的鎮牌之寶，相信許多人都使用過，即使添加酒精成分，仍然受到市場空前歡迎，添加了相當比例的漢方中藥萃取如旋覆花．薏仁．牡丹皮．白蘞．當歸等植物萃取，具有相當不錯的清涼及鎮靜效果，另外小麥胚芽油以及維他命E酯也賦予產品乳白色的質地與清爽的滋潤保濕效果。

SKⅡ Facial Treatment Essence青春露

誕生年：1980

推薦原因：

『如果妳沒有用過青春露、就等於沒有用過SKⅡ！』，這句耳熟能詳的廣告詞其實也所言不假，SKⅡ的第一支產品，同等於Pitera的保養價值，如果妳願意相信Pitera，那麼這瓶高達92.7%比例Pitera的青春露的確值得你一試，有微微酸臭的氣味，不含香料色素，用後肌膚有保濕的感受。推薦原因就在於Pitera的多重保養價值，各種肌膚都適合使用。

小城大事

2008-08-17T15:13:00.002+08:00

I have no idea what happen on me this few days.....just feel that my mouth getting heavier and heavier!!! I have to strain my mandible, show that i'm ok.....haizzz:(

That day I went out with him for dinner.....the whole night, we juz keep silent and eat our meals! All that could be heard merely the stiring voices of teaspoon and the music blewing in the bistro~~~ He knew i'm not in mood, once he opens his mouth, for sure i will just create fight with him.....but, it just displeased me more when he does so!!! Why can't he makes me happy???

We sat there for 2 hrs +, and he's just busying with his DOPOD.....and I'm juz taking photos there and prong the cake....at the end, we don't even have a single conversation....which I actually hoped for~~~

Maybe you might suspect that i'm having red-craze-aunties visit....but it's not! On the way driving me home, I just keep wondering.....do I still in love with him??? does he thinking what I am thinking as well??? I'm just so so so confused!!!! I didn't even say goodbye to him that night....juz stepped out of the car after he untied my safety belt! I really don't know what am I doing. I really do pay all my intention and effort for the outing, I makeup myself, dress-up myself....all just for him!!! But, I just able to show a crumby sad face which myself fell annoying to it.....

Even in msn, I've lost my patient while chatting....I just wish to dominant the person I'm chatting with, I don't want them to chat with someone else.....I wanna be the only one, the one they really pay attention to~~~

Hopefully everything will back to normal soon!!!

This is the song I keep listening to this few days........小城大事 by Miriam Yeung!!! It's an old song, but really pierce my heart~~~~吻下来~~~豁出去~~~

不洗臉也會漂亮！?

2008-07-22T09:44:00.005+08:00

現代人生活忙碌，不論做什麼事都是分秒必爭，什麼都是講求快速有效果，吃飯講速度，交通講速度，現在的日本美眉連卸妝洗臉也講求有效的快速呢！

最近的日本美眉流行一種”法國式洗顏法”，據說法國人是不太用水來洗臉或洗頭髮的！因為法國的水質是屬於礦物質濃度較高的硬水，所以如果常用硬水來清洗肌膚，就很容易產生粗躁感，所以法國人寧願大噴香水也不太常洗澡。雖然日本的水質沒有法國的糟糕，但是相對的，東方人的肌膚也較細緻，容易因為外界的種種因素而有過敏的產生。而所謂的”法國式洗顏法”就是指不用水洗的方式，以不含色素、礦物油的乳液狀清潔用品去除髒污，然後再以化妝水擦拭而達到清洗的效果！這樣不只能防止角質層裡較滋潤的成分流出，也能提高肌膚的自我保護功能，而不致受到太多化學物質的影響。

現在市面上所謂的法國式洗顏法的產品在日本有很多，除了洗顏之外，有些商品也添加了卸妝的功能。ロゼット　クレンジングミルク內含的橄欖油和スクワランオイル都是由天然植物萃取而來，具有天然的保溼效果，也能有效去除髒污。而薰衣草精油的芳香成分能紓緩肌膚，使肌膚達到放鬆。至於珍貴的蜂王漿萃取物可以達到縮小毛孔的效果，而高麗人參萃取物更能幫助肌膚保持滋潤維持肌膚的張力。眾多珍貴成分的ロゼット　クレンジングミルク，來看看他的去污效果吧！

Hurt~~~

2008-07-19T13:43:00.002+08:00

hmm.....sometimes we should have protect ourself perhaps with a shield or just keep a particular distance with any friends you know.....

Can you imagine when someone who forgot your birthday and said "we're just friend, you expect too much~~~"!

Ouch!~~

It's so so so hurt~~~but nevermind.....at least I've get the lesson....people tend to change when you get to know them for a time, or maybe they are just pretending themselve while knowing!!!

It's ok~~~i got to find something else to cheer up my day!!!~~~

A za A za Fighting!!~~~

~夢幻高跟鞋大PK~

2008-07-15T03:31:00.010+08:00

女人和高跟鞋，「2吋、3吋、4吋，高，還要更高，高跟鞋永遠不嫌高，因為那是女人最接接近天堂的機會! 」

人類穿鞋的紀錄久遠，但是如何在舒適之餘，穿出性感的學問卻沒完沒了。崛起於五Ｏ年代純手工、且鞋楦製作超過半個世紀經驗的義大利Sergio Rossi，1999年加盟Gucci家族，打著「奢華」的頂級招牌走自己的路。泰瑪拉．梅隆 (Tamara Mellon)1996年和在倫敦東區訂製女鞋聞名的周仰傑 (Jimmy Choo)一拍即合推出Jimmy Choo女鞋，從此，女人又多了一個展現性感的把戲，穿鞋吧!

慾望城市 (Sex and The City)女主角莎拉潔西卡派克愛鞋成痴，她對Manolo Blahnik女鞋的愛超過情人。日本流行天后濱崎步狂買紅色鞋底的Christian Louboutin高跟鞋更不是新聞。碧昂絲甚至把她對高跟鞋的情感寫進流行歌詞裡。Sergio Rossi、Jimmy Choo和ManoloBlahnik都是挑逗視覺聞名並列全球三大性感高跟鞋，擄獲所有女人的芳心。

最早和Gianni Versace合作，迅速在米蘭時尚界打開知名度的Sergio Rossi；80年代為Dolce&Gabbana和Azzedine Alaia等一線品牌生產鞋履而成名。特殊的造型和精緻的手工技藝之外，豔名遠播的性感高跟鞋之所以成為名媛夢幻逸品，最重要的是要懂得跟上好萊塢女星的踩紅毯的腳步，成為「星光大道」的代名詞。荷莉、貝瑞、希拉蕊、史旺、莎莉賽隆等奧斯卡影后，流行歌手碧昂絲、凱莉米勒和瑪丹娜也都是名牌高跟鞋追星的最佳代言。

去年被國際知名證券公司-陶爾布魯克資本 (TowerBrook CapitalPartners)收購而躍上頭條的Jimmy Choo，市場價值超過一億八千五百萬英鎊。Jimmy Choo初期以製作高雅的繫帶晚宴女鞋為經典，高跟鞋、靴子、以及超過100公分的精緻手工女鞋都是超人氣的招牌款。但最值得一試的是Jimmy Chooj所謂「The Vintage Collection」系列，每款鞋墊特別印製金色星形標記。

不受任何年代和創意的設限的「經典」高跟鞋，最常綴以施華洛世奇(Swarovski)水晶展現晚宴效果、因為電視劇慾望城市 (Sex andthe City)而聲名大噪的紫色絨布面羽毛繫帶女鞋、或是獨特稀有的豹紋和性感穿透的蕾絲裝飾總是和性感自主的女人聯想在一起。很多人不了解高跟鞋的性感配方是什麼? 「試想養尊處優的腳Ｙ子，露出塗上蔻丹的纖纖玉足多性感，」設計師的答案是，就像穿著一樣，露愈多，愈性感。但最教人好奇的是，踩進一雙叫價120萬元野生鱷魚皮的高跟鞋的滋味如何?

Memory....

2008-07-13T22:10:00.002+08:00

I'll remember you forever......the every single moments we have gone through so far!!!!

The scar of this words will ever stay at Fremantle Beach.....the beach belongs to you and me!!!

If you could choose to go anywhere,

just close your eyes and imagine.

The world belongs to just you and i if

I could be there with you.

If any road was one we could take

and any place could be ours.

You make the choice to leave me today

never ever I could be there with you.

If I am where you are

nowhere is too far

so hope you will take me with you

because all i need is you...

When you're gone~~~

2008-07-04T22:46:00.002+08:00

hehe^^ never know that the time goes by so fast, it's been almost 1 month I never update my blog....But, nevermind la, nobody really visits too.....

It's been so busy for me nowadays, keep study, study and study! haizzz.... really hope that I can be a princess, no need to study anymore!!!! haha...

Haizz...dunno why....i'm really moody today!!! I start to think am I fall on him already??? I really have no idea.....I just feel so sad when his attitude and response to me turn from a volcano into iceberg, right after knowing I have someone!!! My life suddenly like lack of something, just feel like someone very important in life has gone~~~Now, the song that really can express my feeling will be this song:-

"When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And when you're gone
The words I need to hear
To always get me through the day
and make it okay
I miss you"

I think he won't chat with me anymore...he told me that he had give up!!! From the response he gave to me, I know that ending is rushing to me..... Anyway, I'll wish him all the best as he always dreamt of being a businessman~~~He definitely can!!!

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"Missed you but I try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm bragging right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say
Bye Bye~~

:(

New love~~~

2008-06-10T02:27:00.002+08:00

Hehe….just went for shopping few days ago, erm…more accurately skincare shopping!!!!

But this few days really broke already; many things just can see, touch, try….but cant own it….haizzzz….

Going to show daddy my pity slim purse d T.T

Whole day shopping merely get a moisturizer and a mask…aiks…what a shame!!!! But still, so satisfy with the products I’ve bought. Damn NICE~~~~is it a bit braggart???hehe:)

Here it is my latest moisturizer Loreal Paris White Perfect Gentle Moisturizing Day Cream SPF20 PA+++! Actually I feel like I’ve been grudged by Loreal’s products….no matter how disappointed I am to the last few products, I’ll still give it a second chance when new products released…haizzz…how come ya???

I’ve been using each version of White Perfect day cream from 2005 to 2008, the classic till the relighting whitening and finally the gentle series….honestly each of them doesn’t really satisfied me, but still I always have the intensity on trying their products! Now I know how important is the commercial…hehe:) The classic tend to be really oily and hard to smooth it all over the skin, not only the whitening effect not seen at all, it causes breakout!!! Faintzzzz

Come to the relighting whitening series, I must say that there are improvements….the cream become less oily and more easier to smooth over the skin. From the aspect of ingredient, more hydrating agents were added and whitening power really improved a lot!!! Still pimples popping out each time!!!Faint..

Now come to the new latest Gentle series, which claimed to be suitable for sensitive skin as well. I must say that the texture really nice, it becomes more silky and super easy to spread over the face though it’s a cream….love it! I can’t say it’s non-greasy at all, but compare to the last version, it’s really far lighter! If you’re just stay indoors, this is definitely a nice and suitable moisturizer for you! Really unbelievable with the texture, heavy in look yet light in applying….most important is that the adding of Light Reflecting Micro Pearls that can create the immediate flash white effect, don’t even need a shimmering cream to create 3D effect, this moisturizer will do!!!

OK! Now take a look at the ingredients. Undeniable, Loreal Paris trademark Melano-block™ or scientific name Calcium D-Pantetheine-S-Sulfonate(complicated huh) is actually a type of Vitamin B5 derivatives, it claimed to have the ability to block the oxidation of tyrosine and so decrease the formation of melanin; while Vitamin C(Ascorbyl Glucoside)have the effect of preventing skin darkening and melanin precipitation. Besides that, this day cream which have SPF20 PA+++ UV defense, effective by the 2 star ingredients – Mexoryl SX and Mexoryl XL, that forming a protection ring. Parsol-1789 and Titanium Dioxide also added in this products…thus, for safety purpose, it’s better to test it before buy especially sensitive skin though it claimed to be fragrance free and thus suit all skin type. I’ve found an ingredient which is never added in Loreal products – Shea Butter! Perhaps the better hydrating effect of this day cream cause of it.

So, with the smell of natural plants, I recommend this to normal/dry skin! Cause it’s really worth, with the immediate flash white effect!!! Cheers~~~

Whitening Trend in 2008

2008-06-03T13:49:00.004+08:00

It’s the peak season of Whitening products again….it has become the norm since whitening products gain its fabulous market and welcome from the Asians, who dream of getting fairest skin in the world perhaps.

Though we always saying that this new formula formed; that formula improved, but still the classic Vitamin C(L-ascorbic acid) partnered with various manifold of plants extract the sovereign in 2008. Is this in the other way telling us there are no more breakthroughs in whitening skincare???

World’s largest cosmetics company – L’Oreal’s line brands, Biotherm and Lancome for instance, recently added the latest approved whitening ingredient by WHO, Ellagic Acid.

Estee Lauder’s turmeric extract, using “curcumin” to block the release of histamine, thus block the inner skin from forming brown spots, “N-Acetyl Glucosamine” to mildly remove the keratin cells layer, “Yeast extract” darkening recovery technology and last but not least Estee Lauder own unique therapy, whitening by mental relaxing, using aromatherapy.

Shu Uemura, who’s under L’Oreal group as well, uses “Ougon extract” and “Gentian extract” essence. Gentian extract to block tyrosine, Ougon to prevent the melanin from reaching the epidermis layer, blend with the lipoprotein molecule. This three whitening gates block the production of melanin and the pathway of melanin transportation, give you a clear and glowing skin without spots!!!

Not much difference from the former whitening trend, SK-II merely improve its fundamental principles by combining the new lustrous whitening ingredients, YAP and OAT to enhance skin moisture and the trademark ingredient – DMT-Blocker which consist of Vitamin C, Vitamin B3 and Pitera, vertically (lyses the keratin cell) penetrate deep into dermis layer, block the formation of melanin and guide out the melanin ; horizontally(peel off the keratin cell) effective skin peeling effect, remove the gloomy dead cell layer.

Lancome new Blanc Expect NeuroWhite X³ Petal, specially designed for accurate diminish action on the spot. The unique essence which contain NeuroWhite™ System and Ellagic Acid, able to block the formation of melanin by 70%, salicylic acid enhance the effect by languished the melanin in keratin layer, the natural French Provence rose extract in fact calm and soothe the skin.

To be continue>>>>>>>　　

Just be yourself!!!!!

2008-05-16T02:31:00.002+08:00

haizzz...sometimes I really have no idea what am I doing!

Everyday doing the same stuff, doing the things which I shouldn't have done....I really feel so sorry......Starting good, doesn't mean that it will last forever! Perhaps that's what people always said "the world isn't exist just for you!". I understand, I do.....but no point, I still forget the message hidden!

I have friends, but why am I wanna be like isolate myself from them....always suspect, criticize and scold them. I don't know.....maybe it sounds so irresponsible saying so, I know! But really, I feel that from the first day itself, God been unfair to me....why they refuse to give me an ideal life??? I willing to have shorter life....really.....as long as i get what I wish for! But, I know that's impossible....no one can deal with God! or maybe that's the challenge I have to face in my life!!!

Looking forward???haha....I really can't see anything! Just a blur, greyish and painful striking light flickering in front of me. Sometimes I rather when I open my eyes, I won't get to see anything else, a dark, quiet, peaceful view....which I don't have to worry about anything, just to be the real self!!! Will this become reality? I don't think so! I really thought that I am the one in this earth being conscious about everything, others are just my imagination , they don't really exist, just to play a role in my life! But, as now I've grown up, I know that all that is childish and rubbish....this world is serving everyone, and I'm just the very very very small or even an unable to distinguish object! We can cry, we can laugh, but what for? We'll just forget the feeling at that moment in a short while....emotions just fake and being....It wont be constant in our life, merely a flux!

Maybe people won't understand me, feel that i'm sassy and just unreasonable!!! But, who really knows who am I??? I am...who I am, I just have no choice but to do so.....am I wrong? Just blame why am I so, who create me to be so? the person should be blamed! I'm just forced to be so!!! I don't really happy with current, why? why? why? I just wanna have a normal life! Is that considered as over, or it's the KARMA from my former life.....please.....I really can't bear anymore such stressful life....I am human, just a very very ordinary person in this world, why am I have to do something bad just to satisfy myself and fulfill my loneliness!!! I hate it!!!
That's all fake, that's not real~~~~~~~

I really hope that I can put everything down, and be the real me, the real person I've been destined to be.....I've lost myself!!!!!!

The End.....haizzz.....

2008-05-06T22:48:00.002+08:00

Just now, something happened!!!

END 06/05/08!!!!!!!

anxious.....

2008-05-05T10:26:00.002+08:00

I didn't sleep well last night.....today, when I woke up, I feel so nervous, anxious, uneasy, worry, etc..... an infinity list!!!

I just feel scare, hopefully nothing bad will happen and my dreams will come true!!!!

Thanks anyway to the guy who chat with me till 3am last night(this morning actually), I didn't tell you about my anxiousness, but you did accompany me to pass through the night!!! Though after that my bro off the router, I can't say bye to you, sorry!
You know who you are right???

God bless^^

World's best sunblock

2008-05-03T18:59:00.004+08:00

This is my favourite sunblock ever after i tried more than dozen of sunblocks....perhaps the words MADE IN JAPAN really convincing....hehe^^

It is a sunblock which is non greasy at all and most important it able to moisturize your face!

Biore claimed to have SPF50+ PA+++, meaning that it is one of the highest sun protection value in the market after Sunplay SPF130.....but actually, you can notice there are a "+" after SPF50 in Biore, this is because Japan Health Ministry had made a law stated that no sunblock can label more than SPF50, any sunblock higher than that, can add a sign"+"....thus, Biore might be higher than Sunplay, we won't know!!! For your information, Sunplay is a products under Mentholatum, Korea product.

Since nothing to do today, let me tell about some scientific knowledge....hehe....if you feel bored, can just skip this!!! Everyday, we just keep talking about UV, UV and UV, but do you know exactly what UV did to our body???

UV is a type of radiation which capable to cause cancer. The effects on cell include inhibition of cell division, inactivation of enzymes, induction of mutations and in sufficient dosage, death of cells. There are mainly 3 types of UV rays - UVA, UVB & UVC. Among them, UVB is the most dangerous, as it is carcinogenic. In the other word, it responsibles for most of the skin carcinoma for instance basal cell carcinoma, squamous cell carcinoma, and melanoma! How it affects the cell? It is attributed to its formation of pyrimidine dimers in DNA and sometimes it will cause mutations in p53 and RAS oncogene....UVA won't cause severe harmful effects while UVC though is mutagenic but fortunately it is filtered by ozone layer....however, in case the ozone layer deplete, then "cham" lol!!! Perhaps it quite complicated for understanding, to explain in the simple way, 95% of them are UVA, it radiates in a high proportion whole day long, causes melanin accumulation, thus form dark spot and aging ; UVB in fact causes redness and swelling, and most of the symptoms shown after went to beach, they will radiate in large amount from 10am to 3pm.

So, whenever you go and buy sunblock, you can see the label SPF and PA. SPF means sun protection factor, protect you from UVB. PA means protection factors of UVA, this measurement is officially released by Japan cosmetic company. As you can notice, most of the Japan brand will labeled both SPF and PA, while Europe products will merely have SPF and some will put PPD. Don't worry, SPF normally will range from 15 to 50....it means how long you can stand to the sun, before you get sunburn. You can calculate it by simply adding a zero and convert it into minutes. For example, if you're using SPF 15, meaning that you can stand under the sun for 150minutes. PA will be valued by the amount of +, as by now, the max is +++.
This is the indicator:-PPD 2~4 is PA+
PPD 4~8 is PA++
PPD 8 above is PA+++
So, whenever you wanna buy sunblock, SPF50 PA+++ will be the best right now!

Back to Biore, this waterproof sunblock can instantly radiance your skin and cover up minor pores! Almost the same texture with Mentholatum Sunplay Range, what we called "Liquid Paper", Biore consists of powder which can absorb oil and cause the skin looks smooth, just like the effect of foundation, but it don't looks like makeup! This product also easy to spread out through the face and won't feel sticky even apply twice on your face! This sunblock need makeup remover to remove in order to get rid from blackhead and whitehead thingy! If possible, I'll recommend a nice makeup remover tomorrow.

Last but not least, give all of you some tips while buying sunblock, just shake the sunblock, and if there are "guli" inside, just like liquid paper! Then, that's a good sunblock!!!!

Whitist forever!!!!

Blessing Day!!!!

2008-05-02T16:51:00.002+08:00

Today, I keep repeating one song, till now i'm still repeating....hehe^^

What's the song??? It's Mariah Carey latest singles - Bye Bye, from the new album E=mc². Just feel so blessed while listen to this song, and calm down my heart totally, clear from all the agony!

The lyrics really meaningful, just take a look or you can lipsynched together...hehe

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause
we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me alive
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown full things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[ Chorus ]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm bragging right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [ 3x ] ) Bye bye

And you never got the chance to
see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to
me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[ Chorus ]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm bragging right next to you (?)
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [ 3x ] ) Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather
Lift your head to the sky 'cause
we will never say bye

[ Chorus ]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm bragging right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

BYE BYE!!!!

Shopping = Happy???

2008-05-01T23:27:00.002+08:00

Just came back from shopping....really tiring!!!

I wonder why??? Sometimes people tend to misunderstand that shopping is a happy and joyful activity.....for me, yeah!!! sometimes it is. But most of the time, it gave me a depressed feeling...really....

Many people don't understand me, they always thought I'm that kind of girl who just care about materialistic and all those branded stuffs! Yeah, I agree I like to wear branded, but that doesn't mean I materialistic....just imagine, what for we wanna buy those cheaplak material and wear it on? If no budget, just save your money till u afford to buy, isn't that better than buy bunches of clothes back home, and when wanna find clothes for some important date, then only realise all just like "shit"....branded not merely a name, it's a tool for us, help to enhance our outlook and inner confidence!!!

Today, I don't really happy! I bought a lot of stuffs, but just to satisfy and try to make myself out of the moody clouds....but it doesn't work....I just getting more and more desperate and frustrated and I finally end up with "throwing the money into the deep sea"! Perhaps alone shopping is not a good idea, calling friend together? yet I think it might be end up with arguement or cold war with friends....this is what I used to experience:(

Always people will said friend is important, they will help you! But, in this individualistic epoch, the spirit of being friend still there??? How come I never experienced that??? For me, they just make use of me, just because I'm from a OK family, wanna get some advantages.....I understand there are bundle of OK family around, but I can't really believe in them are real to me! Perhaps I'm too sensitive.... Sometimes i'm thinking, if I'm not from a OK family, will they be friend with me??? or will they just keep themselve away from me. I dunno.

Today, I saw a lot of couples, a lot of "machi" shopping together! I just feel awful....coz I'm just holding my tote bag, regard it as my best friend...sad huh? However, today I met one of my junior, whom I used to taught him last time....He seems like looking at me, but I not dare to look at him, just keep myself looking at the different direction; He as well just neglect me from his sight....actually I hope that he will walk to me and say hello, but he didn't....haizzz....guess what? I just comfort myself I've became pretty, that's why he not dare to come to me and greet me or he just can't recognize me...hohoho!!!! Positive thinker^^

Anyway, today's a holiday, I mean yesterday as it already passed May 1, I should keep all my sad feeling aside, let the sun shining on my face. Of cause I wont forget about my sunblock...hehe! Oh ya, guess tomorrow I can introduce about my favourite sunblock!!!

Stay tuned...pika pika!!!! oops, sounds like idiot!

da~da~da~

2008-04-30T17:42:00.000+08:00

The first time I listened to this song should be last May I guess...

This is one of the song in Witch YooHee soundtrack, which is my favourite Korean drama all the time....and I did cried a few times while watching this drama, maybe because I watched it alone!

Everytime I listen to this song, it'll just give me some very weird feeling, don't get bias of the word "weird", just I don't know how to describe the feeling! my heart will like beating faster everytime I listen to this song and i'll actually feel a bit nervous yet i'll feel blessed. Very weird is it??? I myself don't know why is it so?

Though I can't understand the meaning of this song, but in my mind there's always some scenes passing by.....It just like a girl who just broke up with her lover, sitting at a lounge, listen to the song. It reminds her about the memorable moments between he and she, both happy and sad moments....every single romantic stuffs the guy had did, already deeply pierced into her heart, no other things can actually substitute that by the moment! And looking at the peoples' around, they are all happy in the pool of love...So, she just decide to put all the sadness behind, appreciate whatever stuff she have right now. That's the most important!

I'm 20 now. Sometimes I really don't know how many days I still can live in this world, will it be the end for me tomorrow??? we won't know! I really hope that in my life, I won't lost anything, I mean I can have my parents accompany me till the day I die, I really hope so!!! I can't imagine my days without them, I really can't afford to stay alive if they're not with me....

So, this is the song which I'll always play whenever i'm sad and need someone to talk with me, let me share my story to....Really envy of them whose have parents to talk with, I mean I just can't express my inner heart's words to my parents! Just can listen to songs, close my eyes, and talking to myself....I believe only "them" can keep my secret and guide me what to do!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0RXU9VrIFfM&feature=related

"Sorry" - a powerful word!!!

2008-04-29T23:01:00.000+08:00

First day blogging, really have no idea what to write!

So I guess i'll write about an incident happaned few weeks back...an incident which really affect my mood and that's the first time my heart beat till I can't breath...really...

I should start with facebook i guess in telling this story.

Last time, I don't really like to play Facebook cause it's really tough to handle as so many applications really make it looks so complicated....yet, I'm still the one used to scold my friend for recommend me such "idiot" stuff!

Wondering why, I just start addicted to it during my exam days! Which I could said I'll log in every half an hour, to earn some money instead....hehe!

The application I like the most will be the FFS(Friends for sale) and HFS(Hotties for sale). As I don't know why from the first day I start to play FFS, my value already reached $50k....perhaps I'm too cute...hehe....faint....But, anyway this is also the application which lead me to the incident!

My friend, Ezra whose recommend me to play facebook, as he's at US now, for sure this is the hottest webster for them....and he asked me to sign up in order to see his photos. So, I was like OK, just create an account and visit his photo albums when i'm free....*He's a cute guy!!!

Then, when I start addicted to Facebook, for sure the first friend I would like to buy will be him! But, he is $200k in price, so I just keep earning money by buying and selling my friends as my owner really help me a lot....hehe....Then, I ask Ezra to buy me as well and so my price just raise till $500k within few days....cool huh?? Finally I got $300k in hand, and so yeah I owned Ezra!!!

There's a funny feature in FFS that we can actually give them nickname, any name which you prefer....So, I just put some funny name to him like Fatzra, Mashimaro, etc. and he kept complaint about that, but I don't care and he enjoyed that as well....Until one day, one of my MSN friend-ern put a shoutout said "Life is like masturbating, you can only do it with your own hand!" However, I think that's meaningful right...hehe....Thus, I just put that as nickname for Ezra! But, seems like this is an over act for them, I never thought that he is really sensitive to such word....He scold me and asked me to change....

I'm a girl imagine, for sure I won't follow what he asked me to do, and I just argue with him...guess what? His stupid friends still leave comment on his profile and said that I'm cheap! I was like OMG, what the heck this related to her? I immediately told Ezra about this and asked him to ask her to shut up her mouth...but Ezra didn't help me, instead he support her! And he actually ask his friend not to buy him away, so that my $300k stuck with him! I just really angry that time and have a big crash with him....Then, finally he asked his friend to buy him away, and I just type to him "from now on, you are you; me is me".....

Perhaps this sentence too harsh, and we end up with a cold war for 2 weeks....we never talk to each other! But, actually I did a silly attempt during this time...I pretend like I sending a wrong message to him, said"Don't forget to buy me Apple pie tomorrow ya!!!", as he's in US now, impossible for him to buy me apple pie right! I thought he'll reply me like are you sending it to a wrong person or what, but he never reply! I wait for half an hour man! That time I really felt like our friendship just end due to a stupid FFS....Right after 2 weeks, I just pick up my gut and say "hey" to him! He didn't reply me immediately, I was like so nervous that time, croosing finger hope that he'll reply me....When I was going to offline, he replied me! I was like so happy, YEEPEE! Then I try to act a bit arrogant "anything to say", this time i waited for 10 minutes....no reply??? With a little bit of fire, I said"When you're heart got nothing to say, no mean for it forcing u to talk about anything.."

And I never thought that he still mind of the nickname thingy, "u still feel u not wrong saying all those things, nvm lar, forget it, we also become like this d, u can block me in msn if u want"!

I just stunned there, omg is it really that severe??? I didn't reply him...till the next day morning, I type a "touched" message and sent to his Friendster! I never said any word "sorry" inside, instead I used some turning technique to express it....and guess what, it's work!!!hohohohoho!!!

He nudge me in msn and said "sorry" to me....I was like omg, I'm genius, just a simple message then everything FINE!!! thereafter, I also say sorry to him and he said me "da nu ren", but nevermind la.....At least I know that a word "sorry" can really save a lot of problems!!!

So, I think everyone should learn how to say this word whenever needed, really POWERFUL...hehe....