da~da~da~

The first time I listened to this song should be last May I guess...

This is one of the song in Witch YooHee soundtrack, which is my favourite Korean drama all the time....and I did cried a few times while watching this drama, maybe because I watched it alone!

Everytime I listen to this song, it'll just give me some very weird feeling, don't get bias of the word "weird", just I don't know how to describe the feeling! my heart will like beating faster everytime I listen to this song and i'll actually feel a bit nervous yet i'll feel blessed. Very weird is it??? I myself don't know why is it so?

Though I can't understand the meaning of this song, but in my mind there's always some scenes passing by.....It just like a girl who just broke up with her lover, sitting at a lounge, listen to the song. It reminds her about the memorable moments between he and she, both happy and sad moments....every single romantic stuffs the guy had did, already deeply pierced into her heart, no other things can actually substitute that by the moment! And looking at the peoples' around, they are all happy in the pool of love...So, she just decide to put all the sadness behind, appreciate whatever stuff she have right now. That's the most important!

I'm 20 now. Sometimes I really don't know how many days I still can live in this world, will it be the end for me tomorrow??? we won't know! I really hope that in my life, I won't lost anything, I mean I can have my parents accompany me till the day I die, I really hope so!!! I can't imagine my days without them, I really can't afford to stay alive if they're not with me....

So, this is the song which I'll always play whenever i'm sad and need someone to talk with me, let me share my story to....Really envy of them whose have parents to talk with, I mean I just can't express my inner heart's words to my parents! Just can listen to songs, close my eyes, and talking to myself....I believe only "them" can keep my secret and guide me what to do!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0RXU9VrIFfM&feature=related

"Sorry" - a powerful word!!!

First day blogging, really have no idea what to write!

So I guess i'll write about an incident happaned few weeks back...an incident which really affect my mood and that's the first time my heart beat till I can't breath...really...

I should start with facebook i guess in telling this story.

Last time, I don't really like to play Facebook cause it's really tough to handle as so many applications really make it looks so complicated....yet, I'm still the one used to scold my friend for recommend me such "idiot" stuff!

Wondering why, I just start addicted to it during my exam days! Which I could said I'll log in every half an hour, to earn some money instead....hehe!

The application I like the most will be the FFS(Friends for sale) and HFS(Hotties for sale). As I don't know why from the first day I start to play FFS, my value already reached $50k....perhaps I'm too cute...hehe....faint....But, anyway this is also the application which lead me to the incident!

My friend, Ezra whose recommend me to play facebook, as he's at US now, for sure this is the hottest webster for them....and he asked me to sign up in order to see his photos. So, I was like OK, just create an account and visit his photo albums when i'm free....*He's a cute guy!!!

Then, when I start addicted to Facebook, for sure the first friend I would like to buy will be him! But, he is $200k in price, so I just keep earning money by buying and selling my friends as my owner really help me a lot....hehe....Then, I ask Ezra to buy me as well and so my price just raise till $500k within few days....cool huh?? Finally I got $300k in hand, and so yeah I owned Ezra!!!

There's a funny feature in FFS that we can actually give them nickname, any name which you prefer....So, I just put some funny name to him like Fatzra, Mashimaro, etc. and he kept complaint about that, but I don't care and he enjoyed that as well....Until one day, one of my MSN friend-ern put a shoutout said "Life is like masturbating, you can only do it with your own hand!" However, I think that's meaningful right...hehe....Thus, I just put that as nickname for Ezra! But, seems like this is an over act for them, I never thought that he is really sensitive to such word....He scold me and asked me to change....

I'm a girl imagine, for sure I won't follow what he asked me to do, and I just argue with him...guess what? His stupid friends still leave comment on his profile and said that I'm cheap! I was like OMG, what the heck this related to her? I immediately told Ezra about this and asked him to ask her to shut up her mouth...but Ezra didn't help me, instead he support her! And he actually ask his friend not to buy him away, so that my $300k stuck with him! I just really angry that time and have a big crash with him....Then, finally he asked his friend to buy him away, and I just type to him "from now on, you are you; me is me".....

Perhaps this sentence too harsh, and we end up with a cold war for 2 weeks....we never talk to each other! But, actually I did a silly attempt during this time...I pretend like I sending a wrong message to him, said"Don't forget to buy me Apple pie tomorrow ya!!!", as he's in US now, impossible for him to buy me apple pie right! I thought he'll reply me like are you sending it to a wrong person or what, but he never reply! I wait for half an hour man! That time I really felt like our friendship just end due to a stupid FFS....Right after 2 weeks, I just pick up my gut and say "hey" to him! He didn't reply me immediately, I was like so nervous that time, croosing finger hope that he'll reply me....When I was going to offline, he replied me! I was like so happy, YEEPEE! Then I try to act a bit arrogant "anything to say", this time i waited for 10 minutes....no reply??? With a little bit of fire, I said"When you're heart got nothing to say, no mean for it forcing u to talk about anything.."

And I never thought that he still mind of the nickname thingy, "u still feel u not wrong saying all those things, nvm lar, forget it, we also become like this d, u can block me in msn if u want"!

I just stunned there, omg is it really that severe??? I didn't reply him...till the next day morning, I type a "touched" message and sent to his Friendster! I never said any word "sorry" inside, instead I used some turning technique to express it....and guess what, it's work!!!hohohohoho!!!

He nudge me in msn and said "sorry" to me....I was like omg, I'm genius, just a simple message then everything FINE!!! thereafter, I also say sorry to him and he said me "da nu ren", but nevermind la.....At least I know that a word "sorry" can really save a lot of problems!!!

So, I think everyone should learn how to say this word whenever needed, really POWERFUL...hehe....