I have no idea what happen on me this few days.....just feel that my mouth getting heavier and heavier!!! I have to strain my mandible, show that i'm ok.....haizzz:(
That day I went out with him for dinner.....the whole night, we juz keep silent and eat our meals! All that could be heard merely the stiring voices of teaspoon and the music blewing in the bistro~~~ He knew i'm not in mood, once he opens his mouth, for sure i will just create fight with him.....but, it just displeased me more when he does so!!! Why can't he makes me happy???
We sat there for 2 hrs +, and he's just busying with his DOPOD.....and I'm juz taking photos there and prong the cake....at the end, we don't even have a single conversation....which I actually hoped for~~~
Maybe you might suspect that i'm having red-craze-aunties visit....but it's not! On the way driving me home, I just keep wondering.....do I still in love with him??? does he thinking what I am thinking as well??? I'm just so so so confused!!!! I didn't even say goodbye to him that night....juz stepped out of the car after he untied my safety belt! I really don't know what am I doing. I really do pay all my intention and effort for the outing, I makeup myself, dress-up myself....all just for him!!! But, I just able to show a crumby sad face which myself fell annoying to it.....
Even in msn, I've lost my patient while chatting....I just wish to dominant the person I'm chatting with, I don't want them to chat with someone else.....I wanna be the only one, the one they really pay attention to~~~
Hopefully everything will back to normal soon!!!
This is the song I keep listening to this few days........小城大事 by Miriam Yeung!!! It's an old song, but really pierce my heart~~~~吻下来~~~豁出去~~~