Shopping = Happy???

Just came back from shopping....really tiring!!!

I wonder why??? Sometimes people tend to misunderstand that shopping is a happy and joyful activity.....for me, yeah!!! sometimes it is. But most of the time, it gave me a depressed feeling...really....

Many people don't understand me, they always thought I'm that kind of girl who just care about materialistic and all those branded stuffs! Yeah, I agree I like to wear branded, but that doesn't mean I materialistic....just imagine, what for we wanna buy those cheaplak material and wear it on? If no budget, just save your money till u afford to buy, isn't that better than buy bunches of clothes back home, and when wanna find clothes for some important date, then only realise all just like "shit"....branded not merely a name, it's a tool for us, help to enhance our outlook and inner confidence!!!

Today, I don't really happy! I bought a lot of stuffs, but just to satisfy and try to make myself out of the moody clouds....but it doesn't work....I just getting more and more desperate and frustrated and I finally end up with "throwing the money into the deep sea"! Perhaps alone shopping is not a good idea, calling friend together? yet I think it might be end up with arguement or cold war with friends....this is what I used to experience:(

Always people will said friend is important, they will help you! But, in this individualistic epoch, the spirit of being friend still there??? How come I never experienced that??? For me, they just make use of me, just because I'm from a OK family, wanna get some advantages.....I understand there are bundle of OK family around, but I can't really believe in them are real to me! Perhaps I'm too sensitive.... Sometimes i'm thinking, if I'm not from a OK family, will they be friend with me??? or will they just keep themselve away from me. I dunno.

Today, I saw a lot of couples, a lot of "machi" shopping together! I just feel awful....coz I'm just holding my tote bag, regard it as my best friend...sad huh? However, today I met one of my junior, whom I used to taught him last time....He seems like looking at me, but I not dare to look at him, just keep myself looking at the different direction; He as well just neglect me from his sight....actually I hope that he will walk to me and say hello, but he didn't....haizzz....guess what? I just comfort myself I've became pretty, that's why he not dare to come to me and greet me or he just can't recognize me...hohoho!!!! Positive thinker^^

Anyway, today's a holiday, I mean yesterday as it already passed May 1, I should keep all my sad feeling aside, let the sun shining on my face. Of cause I wont forget about my sunblock...hehe! Oh ya, guess tomorrow I can introduce about my favourite sunblock!!!

Stay tuned...pika pika!!!! oops, sounds like idiot!