dear….dead???

Some say it ain’t over till it’s over, but I guess it’s really over now….

There’s something i gotta say before I let you go, so listen!

Before this, whenever you and she would argue, then sometime tears would fall, and as you’re struggling, I will felt the rays of hope.

I would calm down as I look at your smile especially when my heart shattered in the silence.

I chose to conceal and hide my feelings away from you, because i knew if you find out, we maybe no longer together.

So the only thing I can do was just hold my breath and bite my lips

“Please leave her and come to me”

“Dear, please don’t hold her hand”

“Cause you should be my men that I’ve been waiting forever, so please look at me”

I clearly know once the wedding music starts, you’ll vow to spend the rest of your life with her, though I prayed and hoped that this day would never come.

Looking at the wedding ring you’re wearing, why it’s not me wore for you? why it’s not me next to you?

I hated you for not understand how i felt, so at one point, I even wished for your misery!

But my tears were already dried up, when I'm by myself talk to you like you’re here.

Every night i felt anxious, maybe I’ve known all along that this would happen, so the only thing I can do was just close my eyes and dream an endless dream – please leave her and come to me!!!

Dear,

Be happy with her so I can move on!

Please erase those pitiful memories of me!

I know for a long time, it’s going to be unbearably hard for me….sigh…

I spent too much time fantasizing, and had a lonely life like a fool. But you still look at me and smile brightly…dear…

I…am suffering…Do you know that?